I Can’t Bring Myself To Put On a Show

I’m not big on social media, since giving it up almost completely a few years ago, my mental health and cognitive abilities have improved greatly. I’m physically healthier and I feel a lot less stress and anxiety. I don’t rush to my phone to make a post every time I’m out or somethings happens. Most of the time I don’t have my phone on me, I’m not a slave to it, I use it when I’m ready for the purposes I need it for only. I don’t use many apps and I don’t do anything personal or that involves sensitive information on my phone. One thing I never really did for any social media was pose and take pictures specifically for posting on social media. I find that to be empty and fake. I don’t have a desire for likes or comments, I prefer those things to come naturally in real life under real circumstances, THAT means somethings to me, social medial likes do not. I don’t care what others think of me and I don’t really care what others are doing. That darn belief in freedom again…keeps me minding my own business! I don’t get that dopamine hit anymore so I’ve pretty much lost interest in the fake and live in the real world. I also like my privacy so I don’t post my entire life online for the world to see. Life is like having a cool new toy. I prefer to enjoy it rather than the empty, ego-driven act of holding it up for others to see.

Social Media has it’s place in my life, it’s just not at top of my priority list and I don’t use it for personal life. I do use it for my business, I use Pinterest, Linkedin and Parler. I do not agree to have my info stolen and sold and I’m not going to be silenced or censor myself. My belief in the Golden Rule and Freedom is enough. Back in 2019, when I was wasting my time on Facebook, I tried to send a link to an article via Facebook Messenger. I got a message back telling me the article was determined to be “misinformation” by their corporate supplied “fact-checkers” which is nothing more than control and censorship. Since Facebook, and all other social media, or any of the puppets working for them, do not get to think for me or decide what I say or share, I shared that link another way, deleted messenger and my Facebook account, as well as other social media platforms who thinks I’m ignorant enough to need and believe “fact-checkers”. I do my own research and make up my own mind. “Fact checker” agreement not necessary. Freedom is kept by living it and not entertaining what does not think we should be free. Fuck Zuckerberg’s evil, soulless ass and all the others who are cooperating with the evil, I’ve got better things to put my mind on and freedom to live.

It’s typical to see some of our youth sucked into all this nonsense, it’s very refreshing to see the youth that isn’t raised by phones and computer games. Other youth out grow the nonsense as they mature into adult life. Their out there, we still have some awesome parents holding their families together in spite of all the efforts to destroy the family unit. Our youth is very impressionable, it’s our responsibility to teach them to use technology, not be used or controlled by it. It is a tool, not a lifestyle choice. It’s not a priority and certainly not something to adjust our thinking and lives to. I don’t find it worth making all that much time for. Personally, I have no time to sit there and scroll through social media. I find it mindless, draining and time consuming. I have too much real life to live for that.

What isn’t typical for me to see is people my age taking fake pictures with fake smiles and fake poses to promote a fake life so the others on social media think some way about them. I recently saw a lady at a social event, about my age, possibly a little older, taking social media pictures, smiling, posing, etc, but didn’t smile once when she wasn’t starring at her phone. In fact, she didn’t’ speak to anyone. When she was done she sat in her vehicle or she sat alone and wasn’t very friendly when I tried to be social. Her energy is stressful, chaotic and intense. Her entire time at this event was spent faking it for social media but not being social in real life. I felt sorry for here. She got dressed up all cute for social media, not to come out and have a great time with other people in real life. Observing this behavior in a full grown mature adult blew my mind a bit.

After a certain age we should have enough confidence within us to not need those things. We should be able to not need them or use them responsibly as the toys they are, not a place to get info and decide what to think. We should have social skills and healthy, real life relationships. We begin to love and appreciate real life and the people in it, we have responsibilities and interests that occupy us. We have people to love and hug and loved ones to nurture and enjoy. Memories need to be made! Once we stop to take a picture and post it, we stop the energy of the enjoyment we were feeling. The momentum stops. I have plenty of fond memories and pictures, none of them will be posted anywhere. None of them faked or manipulated. I would have many more if I left the moment, I very much prefer to stay in the moment with my loved ones. I have a great memory, no social medial necessary. My pictures aren’t for judgement or make people think a certain way of me, their for my own personal enjoyment and reflection. What others think of me isn’t my business and I really don’t care so I don’t take pictures or do anything for those purposes.

Social media is a wonderful tool, it is a horrible master.

To each their own. Paying attention to what is going on around us helps us to see the messages in the observation of other people’s actions and learn about ourselves or appreciate an accomplishment or something else about ourselves. If someone wants to live their life for social media, I support their freedom to do so. I just don’t engage. It doesn’t look like a good time to me and it takes me out of my created reality. Social media does not nurture our ability to create, in fact, it hinders it. Those who don’t realize they are powerful creators will always be impressed by and settle for the soul-stealing entertainment social medial is created to be. For me, going to a social event is for being social, most of the time I don’t even bring my phone. My phone does not rule my life no more than social media does. If I take pictures I’m taking them for my own personal memories and I’m not posting them anywhere.I personally don’t like to be posted all over social media and don’t appreciate it when people post me. I made it a point to stay out of the background of the lady’s pictures this weekend.

I’m not saying all should quit social media, saying one blanket statement that applies to everyone is nothing more than indoctrinated ignorance and a belief in conformity. There is never anything that is right for all. We are all responsible for our personal states and lives. Educating ourselves, which means doing our own research and making up our own minds is where we will get our power and not become mindless slaves. I see it like drinking…some people can handle it, enjoy it but not become addicted to it. Others get addicted and block out what really matters for what doesn’t matter (at least to me). Others choose not to indulge. We all have the freedom to choose what is best for us. For me, it’s to use social media very little for business reasons. I get great e mails from my customers and make sure to get back to them in a timely manner. I want them to talk to me if they need something or have a question, not a social media persona. Being on social media also excludes all who are not on a particular platform. Keeping myself available via e mail makes me available to all.

This, like every other aspect in life, comes down to personal responsibility. It’s our choice how much or little we use it. Only we truly know if it is or how much it’s effecting our lives. Choose wisely!

I’d love to hear your social media thoughts!

My Unexpected Natural Detoxes

Before I get into this, I need to make it very clear that I’m not telling anyone not to use the medical system, I just believe the medical system isn’t for everyone most certainly is not qualified to treat me. This is how I feel. My belief in freedom is too strong to put my nose in your decisions. You do you as you’re walking your own path. No one knows what’s best for you better than you, no one knows whats best for me better than me. Freedom to choose is freedom, anything else is slavery and suppression. I have my own reasons based on research, real science (not Fauci science) and my own intuition, knowledge and guidance as to why I will not include the medical system in my health routine, they specialize in sick care, not health care and certainly not cures. I take full responsibility for my personal well being mind, body and soul. I’m an avid researcher and in no way made this decision blindly or ignorantly. I made the decision to stop using the medical system in 2013 after being told I will always be sick and will get worse. The indoctrination is strong when it comes to cures and I have no time for anyone who can not help me heal myself. I’ve done more than any medical doctor told me was possible and have also achieved the medically impossible. (It’s really not that hard with the right knowledge). I can no longer find a reason to use the medical system, they’ve failed me and my loved ones in more ways than I can count. I have no time to play their game of medically incurable profits. I’d rather cure that shit!

Every now and then I go into a natural detox. I first noticed it in 2014 when it lasted 3 weeks. It was hell. Migraine, vomiting up everything I ate or drank, consistent dry heaves, temperature up and down, every mode of elimination in full force. I stayed on the couch for 3 weeks. Not once did I think about going to the doctor. I had this inner knowing that this was part of my awakening process. It was a necessary cleansing triggered by my creator. I not only felt it physically, I felt a cleansing in my mind, my aura, my spiritual being. I feel it deep down in my soul. The medical system does not work with spiritual issues and the detox is just as much spiritual and energetic as it is physical. I’m not sure if this is what’s call the ascension flu so common in folks who are awakening. I just call it a detox. The medical system does all they can to try to stop it then wonder why people are sick. If I stopped the immune responses, I would be sick too. I don’t get sick.

I need to give credit where credit is due as I did not get through this detox alone. The hubs was amazing. He’s amazing every time I go through this. He patiently let me do what I needed to do while taking care of me. I’m sure part of him wanted me to go to a medical doctor but he didn’t push it on me. My daughter was living at home at the time and was concerned also. A detox is ugly, can’t blame them for being concerned. These days the hubs sees it for what it is and just does what he can to help me through it. There’s been times when it was just coming on, I was in denial and the Hubs saw it for what is it. He knows me more than I I know myself sometimes.

I have no time for the medially incurable or to be sick so I took matters into my own intelligent hands and haven’t regretted it once. I wasn’t an herbalist at the time but I know I have the ability to research and learn. That’s exactly what I did then eventually ended up in herbalist school. My health has never been better and my mind, body, soul connection is so strong it took quite a bit of time to get used to it. I have the health I was told by multiple medical doctors I would never have because it was impossible. They were right about one thing, I am possible! Considering I’m the highest authority in my life, I chose to educate myself and become my own health care professional. I’ve done quite well I must say.

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I knew everyone of my symptoms were immune reactions and stopping them is stopping the immune system from doing it’s job. I decided to trust my body’s intelligence my creator gave it and buckle up for the ride. The first thing the medical system would have done is stop the detox which means toxins would remain inside my body to cause harm. Stopping the vomiting, sweats and other immune reactions would have stopped what was working to keep me healthy. I would have been more comfortable and got back to life quicker, the price I would have paid with my health is just too big. The Medical system would have very much enjoyed that pay day…too bad I have knowledge and skills! I want real healing and real natural health. Can’t achieve that with man’s artificial drugs and Fauci science. .

After this incredibly long detox was over, I felt so cleansed, relaxed in my mind, body and soul. I felt more spiritually connected and clearer in my thoughts and decisions. I was happier, healthier and had amazing energy. My skin felt so clean, like every pore was cleaned out and happy. I felt a cool, clean sensatin on my skin. Some things I’ve been struggling with had clear answers and I was better to the hubs and family. I took a shower and felt so energetically cleansed and reset. Reset is a good word for the feeling in general. I was reset and made new. I know I made the right decision not use the medical system or big pharma drugs, over the counter or prescription. I did use Mother Gaia’s medicine which helped and was the only thing to stay down and not have side effects. I also consulted an herbalist who was amazing in helping me get through this but did not stop the detox. He had knowledge and understood exactly what I going through. A medical doctor would not have understood this because they don’t study it. It’s as much as a spiritual (not religious) experience as it is physical. I find what is illegal to teach to doctors are some of our most powerful healing tools.

Since that first detox, I’ve had many others although not nearly as long as the first one. Some a day or 2, a few morning until late afternoon, yesterday’s lasted all day. The amount of time is based on what my body needs to do. It always starts in the morning, I feel it when I wake up. The hubs is good at knowing when it’s coming as well. He knows me too well!

Yesterday was my latest detox. The hubs took wonderful care of me. I found myself, while laying in bed with pounding head, just got done with my latest round of dry heaves, sweaty, dizzy and feeling wore out, thanking the Universe and Mother Gaia for the detox. I’m grateful for these detoxes and the understanding of what they are. I love the feeling of taking a bath afterwards. I just feel clean, deeply clean. No medical system or corporate product can artificially produce this. As much as they try, they can not out do Mother Gaia.

When the detox was over, I was giving thanks to the Universe and Mother Gaia for it. I looked at the clock and saw 444. That’s when I know what brought the detox on…my own thoughts and energy! I’ve been worried about a few things lately to the point that its effecting other important aspects of my life. I was bringing on intense energies with my thoughts and actions. I was allowing outside circumstances effect my inner being. I had pretty good momentum going and was beginning to feel depressed and hopeless. I was a stressed out mess. After the detox I have no feelings of depression or hopelessness, I don’t feel sad deep inside. There isn’t a pill that can do what our Creator and our Creator’s medicine can do. can. To put it bluntly, Mother Gaia gave me an ass whoopin’! How can I not be grateful for being taken care of?

It’s now 6:07 am and I’m writing this feeling so healthy, cleansed and clear. I feel energetic and eager to start my day. I feel relaxed and calm. My skin looks clear and my hair is so soft. My body feels strong, toned and healthy with soft skin. I took no drugs so the recovery from them and elimination of them isn’t necessary. When we ingest pharma drugs, OTC or prescription, our bodies have to work to recover twice. First from the illness then from the damages of the pharma meds. Recovering from drugs right after recovering from an illness is not good for the immune system or our health and we’ll never have natural health with man made drugs. The Creator knew what they were doing when hey created us and our environment. The medical system is man’s creation based on manipulated science. They have been less than disappointing. Medicine from the earth has cures the medically incurable and has been consistent since the beginning of time. Looking at the history, I choose the Gods and Goddesses medicines.

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I’ve done my research on the medical system, focusing what isn’t taught to doctors and what has been suppressed, censored and manipulated as far as science and the many lives ruined or ended and the suppression of natural cures, just for the man made dollar. To tell me something can not be cured is to tell me the God’s and Goddess’s medicines do not work. My creator made no mistakes. They only stop working if we allow big pharma drugs to keep messing with our receptors and natural healing abilities. Now, if a friend told me a lie and hid information to get something out of me or to get me to do something, then attacked anyone who tried to tell me the truth, I wouldn’t be their friend anymore. The medical system is no different. They have proved to be dishonest and flat out told me I would always be sick. Well, I’m not sick today and it has everything to do with avoiding the medical system and using the medicines put her by my creator. You wouldn’t put a ford part in a Tesla, why would we put man’s medicines in the God’s and Goddess’s creations? Their medicines have a lot less dangerous side effects because their made for our bodies by the one who created us. We have receptors for natural medicines which is one of the reasons they don’t come with a long list of dangerous side effects. We only get dangerous side effects when we put things in our bodies that are not good for them. It’s our bodies telling us the meds aren’t good for us and are causing harm. Silly man competing with the Universe!

Don’t be afraid to try alternative things. The medical system is only one of many, many, many options. I’ve abandoned the medical system all together however, that doesn’t mean everyone should. Some people are able to find a nice balance with medical and natural healing, the important thing is to gain knowledge and get to know ourselves, mind, body and soul. Most medical doctors are good people who want to help their fellow humans, they are not the bad guys here. Their victims of the systems like the rest of us. These people are willing to spend a big chunk of their lives learning how to take care of people. It’s pathetically sad that they are disrespected with and indoctrination instead of knowledge and education.There are precious people in our society, they respected with truth, not dogma.

Whatever you choose, make sure that decisions is yours and no one else’s.

Stay well my loves!

Homesteading…Sometimes You Succeed, Sometimes You Grow

The winter season is on it’s way, I felt the shift during midsummer. The air seems lighter, the nights are cooler and the plants are ready for harvest. I’ve noticed the Mimosa pods are falling from the trees and the herbs and lettuces seem a little happier as they begin to grow quicker and quicker as the season passes. Harvesting and sharing the bounty bring such pleasures, connection and inner peace. We’re connected spiritually and energetically to what we grow, forage and preserve. The smell of drying herbs fill the are as I enjoy the sweetness of a locally grown watermelon. Autumn is creeping in, reminding us to get ready for the following season.

I’ve been blessed with beans and lentils…lots of beans and lentils! Pounds and pounds of them! I’ve been canning by booty off. When it comes to beans, I like to have plenty canned so we have them at a moment’s notice. Most of them are kept dry and safe until I’m ready for more. Being a vegan, I depend on foods like beans and legumes for my protein along with other plants that are high in protein such as broccoli, kale and spinach. It’s actually a misconception that vegans need to worry about getting enough protein. A cow is vegan as well. Any diet is unhealthy if it’s full of processed sugar, processed food, chemicals and GMOs. Those this will never promote good health. The nutrient vegans need to be mindful of are omega-3s. Most vegetables do contain omega-3s in trace quantities however. I get mine from avocados and I do eat eggs.

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I ran out of brown sugar and the cost of sugar is just going higher and higher. Brown sugar is generally more expensive than white sugar in my area. I found it more economical to make my own brown sugar. It’s easy, I just add organic molasses to organic cane sugar and stir until it’s well blended. I can adjust my brown sugar from light to dark and anything in between. Very little molasses is needed so 1 jar lasts forever. I currently have 2.5 jars, it’s taken me almost 2 years to go through half a jar. Sugar I buy in bulk, it’s a good chunk of money up front however, I get it for so much less per pound and I only buy it once a year to year and a half.

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Homesteading, on grid or off, is a continual learning experience. Once we feel we know all we need to know we stop learning and start to waste away. We’re on this plant to learn, grow and expand. Jellies recently taught me this. Making jelly in the hills of Ten Mile, TN is much different than making jellies in Southern Wisconsin. I’ve had to play around with the recipes and my technique. It turns out the problem was my technique, a total me issue! That’s not a bad thing, I do have all the power to change it. Now I have 1.5 dozen jars of syrup that is supposed to be jelly-like. I got the plum jelly to reach proper consistency. I’ll be reprocessing the nectarine and grape. I’m looking forward to sharing them with my community.

Now that it’s cooling off I’m back to making soy candles. It feels good to make them again, I have so many ideas in my head I want to try. Now that I’m in a couple of stores, I need to make a good amount of them. I recently tried to add a little beeswax to the soy way to make them less delicate in the summer heat. In my opinion, their too hard. I’m going to try it again with less beeswax. I’m ordering some bamboo and hemp wicks, I want to experiment with them and different waxes. This is homesteading…trial and error! Sometimes it’s trial, trial, trial, error and trial again. I do very much enjoy the challenges (most of the time) and proving over and over again that you can teach an old witch new tricks!

This weekend I have propagated plants that grew nice root systems ready to be planted and find forever homes. I have some custom orders as well as apothecary products to make and get in the shop. Yule is coming! I’ve got a garden to clean up, compost to tend to and winter seeds waiting to be planted. I have lots more preserving of food and getting the toiletries and cleans stocked up for winter. I’ll be making and canning dog food as well. Our pups do get kibble, store bought for now. I’ll be making that soon and eliminating the cost of store-bought dry food. It’s getting expensive to buy organic dog food.

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What are you doing to prepare for winter? What lessons have you learned? What ingenious ideas have you tried and had success with? What are you sharing with your tribe? I’d love to hear about your homesteading journey!

With Love,

Rainie Dae

I Will Never Treat Others Like This

Everywhere I go I see things get more and more automated, mostly in the corporate businesses…Walmart, Pilot, etc. More help yourself machines and less human interaction. I get the same thing on the phone…the menus that never have the option for the issue I’m having, the message to go online for just as bad customer service and getting hung up on. It takes so much time to get to a human, I’ve spend hours just trying to get one question answered. When I finally do jump through enough hoops to get to a human, I get charged just to talk to them! The worse is when the “escalate” the issue. I have never received a call back when this is done. Have you? Has anyone? I believe they escalate your issue right to the top of their “ignore list”.

The more automated corporations get the more frustrating they get to deal with. I can’t be the only one that gets stuck standing at some stupid machine waiting for a human to come help me. A human would have had me rung up, taken my payment and out the door in the fraction of the time I stood there. I see frustrated employees run from machine to machine helping customers with issues. What kind of job is that for a human? Corporations don’t care and are key players in the pathetic attempt to separate humans for their own gain. Like many other things the cowardly puppets do, I will NOT treat my patrons like that. Those who have questions, requests or concerns should be able to get a hold of me without all the nonsense and get a response from me. Not an automated voice message with a huge menu, not a computer program on the other side of messages, none of that. They get me.


The most automated anyone gets from me is an e mail telling you I’ll received your email and will get back to you shortly. All other communication will be with me, directly. As of now I’m doing all the answering of e mails. If need be in the future, I’ll have a well trained employee help with other tasks so I can answer e mails. Until then, the hubs helps with other things to allow me time with my peeps. I have no desire to get so big that I can’t have that personal relationship with those who bless me with their business. Lots of people are struggling which bring us to be more choosy about where and how we spend our money and time. When someone takes the time to shop my stores and purchase something, I deeply respect their patronage. I owe it to them to give them the best I’m able of myself, not some computer program. From my experience, everyone is different with different needs, how can anything be automated when we aren’t automated and uniform? I find it disrespectful to treat anyone like that.

There’s a certain energy, a personal touch, an element of Love of Lotus Apothecary and Farm that would change the whole dynamic if it weren’t there. When I talk directly to my patrons, doesn’t matter if it’s in person or e mail, I get a better sense of what people are looking for and what they need. I’m in touch with any issues that may arise which gives me the opportunity to correct them right away and prevent them in the future, not after many others had the problem. I can also make things right on a one-on-one basis, not based on some policy for all. All issues are different. I’m able to tailor my shop and my service as well as take personalized and customized orders. I get great ideas and often end up researching and expanding my own knowledge which in turn helps me to help others. This is a vital part of my business which automated programs and AI can never replace. If I automated my business like that, it wouldn’t be the same, the products wouldn’t be the same and I wouldn’t be me. I guess when you’re in business to help others verses in business to make millions, your priorities are a bit different.

When someone purchases something in person or online from me, I want them to experience something made just for them. I know it’s only opening a package in which we all know what is inside. The energy put into that package is what makes it different. The product isn’t some mass-produced garbage made by the lowest bidder. Every ingredient was mindfully chosen and made with intention. It’s important that packages arrive with the product in great condition so I choose packaging to do so. I’m currently looking for more eco-friendly packaging. I’m open to suggestions!!! My packages were not put together by someone who doesn’t care who you are, mine are put together with intention, care and your experience in mind. When someone purchases in person, I make sure I answer all their questions, look them in the eyes and never judge. I treat everyone with love and respect. I truly listen, not just see them as another customer. People are a blessing, no matter how we meet them. It’s better to add value to them than it is to judge them, there’s enough of that going around.

To sum it up…Love of Lotus Apothecary and Farm does not bow to corporate nonsense and ways. I do my best to avoid the negative corporations and their ways. Their ways are pretty easy to avoid. I’m slowly finding replacements for the corporations I use.

What do you like or dislike about your customer service experiences? What can Love of Lotus Apothecary and Farm do to improve? Please don’t ever be shy with your suggestions and thank you for them!

My Amazing Fruit Moon Experience

In the Cherokee Tradition, the August Full Moon is named the Fruit Moon as it signifies a time of wild harvesting the fruits of trees, bushes and vines. The berries, grapes and watermelon are ripe, sweet and ready for enjoyment, processing and storage. The Paint Clans begin to gather herbs for medicine and the Wild Potato Clans are harvesting along water ways. It’s a time of abundance and gratitude, processing, storage and sharing the bounty. Personally, since the previous New Moon, I’ve felt renewed, energetic, more alive and physically healthy. Energetically, the Fruit moon called to me and I felt her energy like I’ve never felt before.

Let me start the afternoon before the night of the full moon. I was working at my desk when I got the urge to hold on to my moonstone tower. I looked over at the wonderful moonstone and felt her calling me. I picked her up, held her in my hand and felt the energy of the full moon rush through my hand then quickly through my body. I then held her up towards the moon above my crown chakra and felt even more powerful full moon energy rush through and around my body as though I was being cleansed and renewed. I’ve felt nothing like this before, it was so amazingly loving. I stayed in the space for a while, feeling vibrations and tingles as the energy took over my body.

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I put the moonstone tower in my bra for the rest of the day. I’ve been blessed with boobs, might as well make the best of them! I felt the moonstone’s calming and powerful energy right near my heart chakra, it helped me to stay in a good space as I went thought my day getting things done. I would forget it’s there then feel her remind me through her vibration. She kept me calm and connected to the Full Moon all day.

I’m no stranger to working with the full moon or moonstones. When I do my workings, their usually planned for a few days or longer, thought through, have a clear intention, tools cleansed, time set aside, I’ve eaten a clean diet, all the things we do as we prepare for a working. I meditate into my power, cast a circle, etc. None of that happen this time. I’ve never felt so called to work with energy before, the energy’s call was so strong, it was a strong calling my soul couldn’t ignore. Regardless of my lack of preparation, it was effortless and just flowed. As magickal people, we’re working with Universal energies and often calling things to us from beyond the veil. It was almost as if the energy did it’s working and invoked me into it’s space. Could this be a guide or ancestor calling me? Was the intense energy an upgrade, message or there to assist my body with the physical changes that come with an awakening? Could this have been from my Cherokee heritage? Our land was once Cherokee land before my people were removed from Tennessee. I feel their energy, it’s still here. I have a very old White Oak that Knows, I have deep respect for this tree.

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Ever since the Full moon, I’ve felt more focused on what I’m on this planet to do, Love of Lotus Apothecary and Farm, my loved ones and personal inner work. This full moon knew what I needed to experience to go to the next level. Growth never comes from a comfort zone or from closed minds. Being open to what the Universe sends me has served me well. It’s been challenging, frustrating, discouraging, angering and beautifully strengthening. It’s grown me in ways I’ve been told never existed. Most of all, I’m, grateful for it all!

What A Woman Is…From A Woman’s Perspective

What is a woman?

I agree this is a complex question as women are beautifully complex creatures. We can’t be described in a word or political label. When people simply can’t answer that question or are trying to wipe out or change a definition or are offended by it, it’s time for us women, us REAL women who know who the fuck we are to stand up and show the rest exactly what a woman is. We are the most powerful creatures on this planet…in many ways. I’m going to answer this question from my perspective as a bad ass woman. Keep in mind we are all wonderfully unique. Definitions will change from one woman to another. Maybe that’s why the puppets on the Main Stream “News” can’t define what a woman is. There’s a lot of woman voters, the ones with puppet strings better be careful who they so ignorantly try to erase. Feminine energy is coming back and we’re coming into our power…and that scares the shit our of their cowardly asses. There isn’t a force on this plant that can stop it although their trying like hell.

I am a woman, my creator made no mistakes, not with me or anyone else. To deny what I know is true about myself requires a death as I can never fit the lack of definition found today. As a woman, I am NOT a feminist, feminism today is such a turn off. I am not weak, I am not a birthing person, that’s only one of my superpowers. I’ve been victimized, remaining a victim is a choice. I was molested from age 2 to 16 and raped by someone I knew in 2013. I’m not a fucking victim of men. I was victimized by 2…out of the billions of men on this planet, 2 did this to me. I find it mindless to define all men by the actions of a few others. First off, neither one of these cowards got away with it, a woman knows how to use her power. Second, there is no way in hell these two wimps get to decide how I feel about others, feel about myself or how I live my life. They are not men so they don’t get a say in how I feel about men, REAL men (That’s a discussion for another post) I turned their evil into the shit that fertilized my growth. They both now fear me. That’s one of my superpowers.

The experiences I had with the 2 losers mentioned above were traumatizing, I didn’t just walk away from it. I had to take responsibility for myself, gather my resources and do whatever I needed to do to not only get past their evil deeds but to use them as the shit that fertilized my growth. There’s nothing I can’t grow from. I will NOT allow a damn thing to haunt me forever or keep me in a state I don’t want to live in. If I’m going to have to spend my time doing something, I’m going to do it well and it’s going to be worth it. I didn’t want to only heal, I wanted to grow from this. Neither one of those cowards are stupid enough to cross my path today. Not only did I turn them into fertilizer, I’m able to use my experiences with them as a way to inspire others and help them find their inner warrior. I’m on this planet to heal not only myself but others as well. That’s just another one of my superpowers.

We all have masculine and feminine in us, testosterone and estrogen, the God and Goddess. That’s because the 2 energies are not enemies. To call one toxic or to deny one is to call parts of ourselves toxic or to deny parts of ourselves. To dishonor the other dishonors ourselves. I am the embodiment of the Divine Feminine, how can I not honor that in myself and in others? What a privilege it is to be! How can I not love and honor the Divine Masculine? Energetically and magically, I see masculine and feminine. As a Nature Witch I see masculine and feminine all around me, I feel the energies, I call upon the energies in my workings and use them when creating Apothecary products and other workings. The divine masculine compliments me, there is no enemy or toxic masculinity. To call it toxic is in itself toxic. Both energies are needed, that’s why we’re blessed with both. Balance. Knowing what the Divine masculine is and living peacefully with both energies is another one of my superpowers.


As a Women I give, live and grow life, nurture, feed, heal others and balance energies in my home and surroundings. I’m the Divine Feminine half of my relationship, a nurturing and loving support of the Diving Masculine, existing in symbiotic harmony. We are not enemies, we’re one. Anything we do to each other we do to ourselves, that’s true in life in general. For me, the question isn’t what is a woman. It’s what kind of woman do I wan to be? How can I love and support others in there womanly journey? What can I learn from other embodiments of the divine feminine? How can we come together and heal and love others and ourselves? For the Divine Masculine, the question isn’t what is a man, it’s what kind of man do you want to be. However we answer that question really doesn’t matter, it’s the actions we take to nurture those energies that mater. We all chose how to express our divinity or to not express it at all.

What a woman is can not be defined through politics, they fear the Divine Feminine. That’s what all their nonsense is about. I DO mean nonsense as I cooperate with none of it. It’s the Great Awakening that the Covid Scamdemic and the fear mongering shit on the news is supposed to distract us from. It’s what has the demon himself, Bill Gates and his evil little idiots are all worked up about. The thing is, the Divine Masculine and Divine Feminine are too big, too strong and have the Universe on their side. This was written many, many years ago in multiple ancient texts. That’s why most religions, politics and other powerless entities that rely on fear for followers have done their best to wipe out the divine feminine. Mary Magdalene was NOT a prostitute, she was the embodiment of the Divine Feminine. Her book, The Gospel of Mary, is a beautiful read (please read it) that has been banned from the Bible, it messes up the story we’re supposed to believe. Lilith is another one whose Divinity has been uglied up with false stories. I really don’t need to get started on how there have been efforts to wipe out the Divine Feminine in many aspects of our society, and way far back in history. That’s a lengthy blog post for another time.

A woman is such a complex, beautiful, powerful, healing and nurturing energy. Our womb is a portal in which we all come to earth. We give life, love, healing and the occasional ass whooping when the need arises. We are magickal, powerful, and can do things the good ‘ol American indoctrination wants to believe are not possible. We are not under man and he is not under us. We are not made from a man’s rib, men don’t give birth. We are complimentary in our ways and energies. Natural life needs man to create life as well, that’s only one way we compliment each other.

I didn’t even scratch the surface of what a woman is. I find it ridiculous that it’s even be questioned and have no respect for those who are trying to wipe out what they fear. Like other political nonsense, I ignore it and do what the fuck I was going to do anyway. The woman is here to stay, politics irrelevant. It’s not possible to offend anyone without their permission and their chosen belief in conformity. I’m not living my life for the purpose of offending, I do what I do and live what I live because it’s natural for me, it’s who I am and it’s what I’m on the planet to do as the Embodiment of the Divine Feminine. Approval not necessary.

I’d love to hear how your embrace your Divine Feminine and Divine masculine. I believe I can ask 100 men and women that question and get 100 different beautiful, powerful responses.


Living True to My Beliefs

This past Saturday I did my first of many Saturdays at the Sweetwater Market. It was interesting to say the least. The other vendors were great people, the weather was beautiful and there was a Pride event in the park next door. There was even a church group aggressively protesting the Pride event. While setting up the energies were peaceful morning energies, it was nice. As time passed and more and more protesters showed up, the energies got messy and, after a while, uncomfortable.

The thing I noticed is what a tool of separation and mind control religion and labels can be. I just felt the hate the protesters had for their earthly brothers and sisters as I walked past them. I tried to put myself in their shoes but I can’t put my mind there. How can anyone choose to hate an entire group of people over a belief system? How can something that separates and controls people come from a place of love? How the hell am I supposed to take any of this seriously? I come from love and light, not sin. I do not fear my Gods and Goddesses. I do not have the ability to hate others for being different than me or than I’m told to be. Freedom is freedom for all, not freedom to live in someone else’s box, according to their version of an ancient text, that’s mind control and slavery. Nothing of value needs to recruit and separate people. Attempting to do so is a HUGE red flag.

The leader of the protestors, I’m not sure of he’s the pastor or not, came over by my booth. He was polite as he noticed the beautiful pentagram charm on my necklace and glanced over my products. I stood there, smiling as he composed himself. He then asked me if I go to church. When I’m asked that question I just feel the judgement spewing all over me. I told him the forest is my church and I go often. I find judging someone by their choice to go to church or not is ridiculous. Not everyone needs or wants that. I get absolutely no benefit from it. That’s me. Others may really feel they benefit from it greatly for whatever reasons (really not important why) and want to go to every church event possible. Neither is wrong. People deserve the space and peace to explore and figure out what is right for them without harassment for not subscribing to someone else’s “one true”. It’s no one’s business how I practice or what I believe; what really matters is that I live true to my beliefs, intuition and my authentic self. It doesn’t matter what that looks like to others or if it fits their chosen belief system.

I understand and respect that their religion is based on their interpretation of the King James version of the Bible. Not a damn thing wrong with that! Hey, if you want to be a Christian and base your life on any version of the Bible as you understand it, I got all the love and support for you. Likewise, there’s nothing wrong with being an Eclectic Nature Witch and Empath either. It’s more important that I live true to my beliefs than it is to recruit others into them or argue with anyone about them. I refuse to argue, I’m too busy living true to what I believe. What would I be arguing for anyway? Just like standing on a street corner screaming at people different than you isn’t going to change a darn person, neither is arguing. It’s really not important that others approve of me, permission is never needed to do as they will. I’d rather be a light for those who are in the darkness or judgement

The closed mindedness and refusal to accept anyone different than them really made the protesters seem like programmed robots. They were holding signs and screaming, wanting to be heard but refusing to hear anyone else, even those who simply tried to talk to them from a place of love and understanding. They just kept screaming. We should always try to understand those different than us and learn to respect the differences. There’s power in diversity, there’s weakness in sameness. When asked when their God outsourced the job to judgement to them they just kept screaming about going to hell and repenting. They want everyone to be like them and really don’t care if you’re happy about it or not. I personally stay away from belief systems that recruit and claim to be the one true. That claim is so disrespectful to all other humans on this planet. We’re not all sinners, I do NOT come from a place of sin but they kept throwing that word around. Calling me names does not make me want to do as they do, it completely turns me off.

As I observed the non-protesters, I saw a lot of annoying looks, people taking different routs to try to avoid the screamers and the protesters quickly get out numbered. The energies coming off these people were dark, hateful, full of fear and shame and just ugly. Not something you want to be throwing around in the name of any loving God or Goddess. They were unwelcoming and very judgmental as if their God just couldn’t do all the judging himself and outsourced it to this entire group with special permission to verbally abuse and slander and entire group of other people not one of them took the time to get to know. Buddhism has taught me to seek understanding first, even with my so-called enemies. The protester’s actions and words made it very clear they have no interest in understanding anyone. Their version of the Bible is the right one, their version of Christianity is the one true and everyone who isn’t like them is going to hell. It was nauseating how much hate this group spewed all over the place. The blessing of a beautiful day should not be polluted by so much hate.

The protesters hurt the vendors as people that would have normally walked to the Sweetwater Market decided not to due to the protesters. I can’t blame them, no wants to spend their morning getting screamed at for simply walking down the street. They way they were treating the Pride people was downright disgusting and cruel. I don’t blame people for avoiding them. They pain these people cause…the hurt feelings, the isolation, the threat of hell and being called a sinner, the refusal of the people abusing others instead of seeking understanding, the harassment simply for going to an event they choose to hate. Love and hate do NOT exist in the same space, no do love and fear.

All Gods and Goddesses matter! While explaining to the leader of the protesters, he approached my booth, I explained to him that all Gods and Goddesses matter. This was while referring to my medicines as “God’s Medicine”. The Christian God is just as important as Mother Gaia, Mother Moon or Father Sun and any other diety. Their all just as important as other Gods. My Gods may not be important to others however, their all worthy of our respect. People are not all the same, that’s the struggle the protesters were having. It’s a blessing to have many Gods and Goddesses, many belief systems and the ability to create our belief systems. We can study, learn, experiment and find what works for us. It’s not important to have a God or Goddess or work with Deity. Their only one form of energy. We’re not “under” any God or Goddess, we ARE Gods and Goddesses that forgot who we are. We need to learn and honor each other, lift each other up and accept people for who they are. ALL LIVES MATTER. After we packed up, the hubs and I walked over to the Pride event to show our support, spread some love to combat all the hate the protesters threw at them and work a little protection magick. As we walked past the screaming protesters, I felt the dark, hateful, ugly energy coming off them. It was gross, sticky and heavy. Once we entered the Pride event, the energy changed. It was higher in vibration, peaceful, happy, the color yellow comes to mind. People were friendly, welcoming and not one person cared we were straight. They were welcoming to everyone. As we walked around I spread love and positive energies and worked a little protection magick to help keep the negative energies out of their beautiful event.

While were there we hunted down some staff to offer our support in other ways. We came across a very sweet young man that filled us in. Their happy to have my booth and I don’t have to be careful what I bring as I was told to “bring it all!” That’s what I call love and acceptance! I was told that Sweetwater Pride is only 2 years old and they are having other events to help the cause grow. We offered to be a vendor in their events and music as we’re both musicians. With how well we were treated, the way we saw others being treated and the beautiful energies created by the people at the event, how could we not support such love? Getting past the political labels, the tools of separation ad the evil energies will bring anyone to a beautiful place with beautiful people. I leaned a long time ago to never believe what I hear bout others because most of time its’ not true. I’ve had enough lies told about me and acted on as if they were true. I refuse to do that to anyone.

Just because I support a group of my brothers and sisters doesn’t mean I agree with all they do or say. Not everyone in that group even believes the same. The hate comes from the puppets in the Main Stream Media and on Social Media tell us to hate, it’s a tool of separation and control. Personally I choose not to listen to that shit and get to know people myself. Main Stream Media has not been worthy of my time and I don’t use main stream social media, my belief in freedom and truth keeps me away from those things. Some in the LGBT community believe in more than 2 genders. I do not. That doesn’t give me the right to abuse them or cram my belief in 2 genders down their throat with all my various evidence. They have a right to believe in how many genders they want. It has nothing to do with me! I’m not supporting any political movement as politics is for sheep, not for those who know their power. I’m supporting my fellow humans and their freedom to be who they are without abuse, the only rule being to harm none.

All Lives Matter, All Gods and Goddesses Matter.

With love,

Rainie Dae

The Things You Notice After Going Off Grid…

The desire to improve my physical, spiritual and psychological health as well as becoming self sufficient were all reasons to go off grid. I had no idea what an amazing effect it would have on my well being. Mother Gaia is certainly intelligent in her design. Everything is connected and that includes our healing. I’m growing and healing in ways I never really knew I needed. I feel myself getting back into natural balance and coming in tune with the natural cycles we’ve all been so disconnected from. Getting back to who I am and not who I’m told to be or expected to be.

It’s so much easier to get grounded and stay grounded living in the heart of nature. I feel the energies of the earth all around me from the time I wake up to the time I go to sleep. I feel the nature spirits all around me, the dancing energies of the sun, the calming energies of the moon, Mother Gaia is everywhere. I feel the different spirits when I walk this beautiful land and I know they feel me. I feel the earth’s cool, calming energies surround me. I’m able to draw the energies up from the earth and play with it…collect it into a ball, pull it all into me, push it all out then in again. I fell my fingers tingle and a slight chill through my body. I feel myself ascending and entering into the 5D. When I’m ready to ground, all I do is plant my feet on the beautiful earth and just feel her surround me. She is everywhere.

I no longer get headaches…not at all. Living off grid symbiotically with Mother Gaia gets me away from many environmental chemicals. It gets me breathing clean, fresh air and drinking chemical-free rainwater. I east freshly harvested, organically grown produce. I use only clean products or products I made myself such as cleaning products, laundry soap, makeup, bath soap, toothpaste, etc. Recently we stayed in a hotel for 3 nights while traveling. The hotel was what I call “corporate clean”. It was cleaned with all sorts of chemicals and I could tell. When you don’t live in the toxins, you become more aware of them and damage a they do to living beings. It was a very unnatural feeling. Everything was chemically…the sheets, floors, water, towels, common areas, everywhere was chemically. The headache was the worse in the morning as I was sleeping on chemical-filled sheets. I got a headache after about 30 minutes in this building from all the chemicals. I’m noticing myself feeling them everywhere…stores, bank, restaurants, gas stations, etc. Chemicals everywhere! My headache stayed until I left the building. It took 30 minutes to an hour to go away without any effort on my part. It stayed away until I entered another chemical filled building.

This makes me wonder…how many people are taking medicines for headaches, allergies, etc that are from environmental chemicals? How many of us are spending our hard-earned money on even more chemicals to counteract the effects of environmental chemicals? How many are walking around with dis ease that could have been prevented if we weren’t lied to and told the chemicals are harmless despite the science. How much money is made off the ill? I’m not talking Fauci/Gates science, the stuff taught to us and our kids in schools. That’s indoctrination, not science. I’m talking about the real stuff. The hidden stuff. The stuff many people have been murdered for sharing. The shit the government doesn’t want us to know because we are their biggest fear. This also makes me grateful for our little off grid farm. Living in nature has kept me from sharing in the ills of the modern on-grid matrix. I wonder how many times in my life I put pharmaceutical man-made medicines in my body for issues that were caused by my chosen environment. I’m willing to bet I don’t have enough fingers and toes to count! Thank the Goddess and God I woke up!

I’m noticing in my showers!! When I use rain water, I feel cleaner energetically as well as physically. I use less soap because soap bubbles up and cleans much better in pure rain water than it does in city chemical cocktails we’re told is water. The energies of pure water are much more healing than the toxic water man “treats”. I always thought I had dry skin. I did, however, it wasn’t natural for me like I thought. My dry skin was from all the chemicals in the water and the cleaning products I was using. Now I’m using rain water and chemical-free products. For the first time ever in my life, I have no need to use lotion after bathing most of the time. I no longer itch, feel uncomfortable in my skin or get little bumps big pharma has many creams and toxic pills for. I was told by many professional in the medical system I would always have this skin problem. Too bad it’s illegal to teach them truth are cures. Most doctors are good people who want to help their fellow humans. They deserve the knowledge to truly do so. Incurable is a medical term, not a scientific one. My skin doesn’t feel or look dry. It’s quite healthy :)Many murders have been done to keep us ignorant and dependent. The truth is never taught willingly bu those who are trying so hard to convince us of their lies.

The energies of a chemical-free environment are much different, this is something I didn’t even think of until I experienced it. The mind, body and soul are calm and become one relaxed energy. Messages are easier to receive from Spirit and divination is easier and powerful. I always liked the energies of a clean, organized house. When I clean my current home, the energies are much more improved. I get that clean-energy feeling but it feels more natural, cleaner, healthier. When man made chemicals are introduced, the energies get chaotic, my mind gets chaotic. The energies of just about anything man made to replace what the God and Goddess has given us are ugly, sticky, dark and simply in my way. They many give the physical impression that their doing some good, their great liars. This is a hard one to explain for me but I love it!!!

I know we haven’t removed chemical completely from our lives however, we did remove a lot, enough to truly experience a huge difference in the mind, body and soul. This is certainly an am amazing journey. It’s hard to wrap my mind around all the dangerous chemicals we’re exposed to on grid and think it’s just normal. I considered myself healthy until I moved off the grid. I’m healthier than I’ve been my whole life and had no idea this was what true health felt like. This level of health is something I didn’t know could exist when I was living on grid. I see whey they fear us and our awakening!

When researching and discussing the topic of removing chemicals from our lives, it can seem overwhelming, chemicals are everywhere, in everything. The easiest thing for me to do is take it one step at a time, one change at at time. I started where I was with what I have. Some steps required habit changes, others came easily. The biggest changes came from buying organic or making products myself. Making them is much easier on the budget.

There have been so many health changes. My skin isn’t dry, my hair is thicker, my natural curl came back, I no longer get headaches or stomachaches, My cognitive abilities are sharper. My energy level is amazing which is needed for off grid living. Age spots have disappeared and I have no more cellulite on the back of my legs. I get no more brain fog. I haven’t had an anxiety attack since moving on grid. I feel my body getting stronger as well as my mind and abilities. The abilities!!! That is a subject for another blog post!

Removing myself from what doesn’t serve me serves me more than I could have ever imagined. It could be chemicals, people, places, thoughts, energies, whatever, if it doesn’t serve me and is there for my highest good, it needs to go.

Personal responsibility fixes everything!

The Greatest Gift My Mother Has Ever Blessed Me With

There is one gift that my mother has given me that has served me my entire this life and still does so today. It’s a gift I passed on to my own children. I’m not even sure my mother knows what a positively profound gift she was giving me, although I know the freedom to think for myself and make my own choices was at the heart of it. While other girls were being taught to be good, well behaved little ladies, I had a handful of brothers and a strong ass mother with true southern values. She did not correct my perceived attitude problem or out-of-the-box quirkiness, she just made sure I was respectful.

The gift I’m talking about here is the freedom to explore other belief systems and have the space to talk about them. She allowed me to go to churches and other places with friends and neighbors of different belief systems. She allowed me to express the different aspects of me and taught me how equally important they all are and that they all equally deserve respect. Not one is better or worse than the other. She would answer my questions the best she could but never attempted to create fear, prejudice or any negative feelings towards others for being different. So much of this is missing today in the 3D. What my mother was doing was supporting true freedom. If she were to tell me there is only one way to be or believe she would have strongly instilled a belief of conformity in me. I’m grateful for her unique wisdom as I see conformity as the death of authenticity which is the death of diversity and strength.

Another thing she did was to make sure we knew every human on this plant is just that…a human, just as important as we are. We are all here for different reasons. Expecting others to squeeze into some box takes away the beautiful strength and experiences diversity brings. I was different as a kid, much like I am as an adult. I didn’t know it then, I know my mother knew somewhere deep inside, my differences are my strength. There is strength in diversity, weakness is in any group or society who require conformity and sameness. There’s reasons political puppets work hard to get everyone thinking and being the same. They can’t have the illusion of power over a diverse society that thinks for themselves and refuses to separate over differences.

The most beneficial effect this has had on me is to nurture my innate curiosity and allow me to find my way. I would never be who and what I am today without the freedom to do so as a child. I never felt the guilt or fear most religions require and never felt guilty for exploring the occult, which means hidden. I would have never discovered my powers and abilities or had the ability to use magick for the good of myself and others and to help heal the medically incurable. My mind would have been clouded, like it has been in other areas, by the chatter of the useless indoctrination that likes to keep us humans in a box.

My mother taught me to be me, to be strong and to not fear what I don’t know. She allowed me to experience different cultures and belief systems and taught me the value of all human life, we ALL matter. My mother taught me to be myself, no matter what is going on in the puppet world of politics, what society is saying or what anyone says. I was taught to have no regard for these mindless things and just do me. The only voice that matters is mine as I’m trustworthy enough to make my own decisions and be and believe as I am.

My mother is not a Witch and my family religion is Southern Baptist. She didn’t have to be and her chosen religion is unimportant to allow me to grow into the Eclectic Nature Witch I am today. She never taught me to be like her but to explore and experience. I was not taught to fear what I don’t know or any of the Gods. I was never given a guilt trip for being different and doing my own thing. Those are rare gifts I will always treasure.

This is the greatest gift my mother has ever given me and for that, I will always honor her.

Thank you, Mom.

Getting to Know Myself, NOT Identifying and Begging For Inclusion

I find the whole concept of adopting a man made label, allowing it to shrink my identity to the core of who I am to fit it just empty, mindless and disgusting. There is no growth, no newness, no uniqueness. Labels destroy the things that make the human race strong…diversity, adaptation and growth. The whole concept of seeing myself as a victim then begging for inclusion and protection from the people who invented and feed off this nonsense is ridiculous. Humans are not that small. We are all more than any political or man made group can comprehend. Man made and political labels keep us small, no one is on this planet to play small, shrink into labels or be a powerless victim.This is how they divide and control us. Man made labels suck that good ass prana right out of you. I choose better. So many people are these days and I love it!


I’m a spiritual being having a human experience on this planet as part of the awakening. I’m sovereign and live by my natural rights, not the man made liberties the powerless ones need us to accept. I’ll keep my natural rights, thank you. This means I don’t need the powerlessness of the government to include my special label. Of course it will keep me small to let one part of my identity overshadow the other parts, it puts us out of balance. That’s the purpose of tools of separation. I choose to NOT allow my identity to be a tool. The government is too small to comprehend the vastness of us humans. We are the power, we govern ourselves. They have nothing worth adopting and begging for, not a thing.

I identify as me. I’m a spiritual being having a human experience. I’m growing into my power and abilities and discovering new things about myself all the time. There is no word for who I authentically am and the same is true for you. If I were stuck on one label, my growth will stop and I’ll focus on the victimhood of the label. I’ve been victimized, there isn’t a force on this planet that will make me identify as a victim that needs inclusion and protection. I’ve allowed those experiences make stronger and wiser than the ones who victimized me. I turned them into the shit that fertilized my growth. My vibe attracts my tribe, no government forced inclusion necessary. I belong in places right for me which may not be places right for others. My belief in freedom does not allow me to hate others different than I, that would be conformity and hateful. The powerless ones love that, it’s delicious food for them. You have to have hate in you to hate others just for being different. There’s enough of that on this planet. It’s destructive and mindless. When I look around in the world I choose to live in, I see very few people lowering themselves to that nonsense. It’s a beautiful thing!

My identity changes and grows as I learn, grow and go deep within me to get to know myself on a deeper level. I don’t hold on to any part of me, that will only strangle and kill it. There isn’t a force in this universe that can tell me who I am. I’m discovering myself every day. Once I put a label on myself I stop my growth and externalize my power to man made governments and ideals. Man made anything can’t handle the concept of a human who knows their power and the forces in the Universe. That’s why religions and politics use the ever so obvious tools of control such as fear, trying to make us feel small and powerless and using our differences to separate us. There’s strength in diversity and they know that. Diversity among all us humans and diversity within ourselves.

My sexuality is NOT a political issue and politics is powerless to make it one. It’s also not my identity, it’s simply a part of who I am. It does not make me less or more than the next person and I love no rights over it. You don’t lose natural rights. Liberties come from man and we all the choice to exchange our natural rights for man made liberties. I choose not to. I don’t need anyone’s approval nor do I need to mention any other gender or sexual orientation or any other man made label in my conversations. My conversations are what I choose them to be, period. I also do no need to be “represented” or “included” in anyone else’s conversations, public or private. I don’t identify as a woman, I AM a bad ass woman. My creator does NOT make mistakes. I am NOT a birthing person. Giving birth, giving life, being the portal in which life enters this planet, is just one of my many talents. My body is able to birth another perfect human human…boy or girl as none of us are made as mistakes. As the embodiment of the Divine Feminine, I not only give birth, I bring life in other ways. I nurture my garden which feeds my family and community. The life I nurture plants into brings life to living beings which brings life to this planet. I make powerful medicines to help others get back to the diving beings they are. I have the magick of Gaia and the Universe pulsing though my veins and learned how to use my abilities. This is exactly what all the labels are to keep us from discovering…our own power.

Who I have sex with has nothing to do with my identity and is personal. Am I straight? Gay? Bi? What sexual orientation do I identify with? NONE! I’m what my creator made me to be and I don’t have to answer to a being in this Universe for that. It doesn’t matter to anyone but me and the person or people I choose to be sexual with. Period. I don’t owe anyone an answer to any questions that I deem personal. I don’t need to protection or inclusion, I need to live true to who I am by my own beliefs and ignore those who don’t like it. I don’t do haters, I simply have no time or energy for them. I put them on ignore quick and never think of them again. Really, with all the changes going on in this world, who has time to argue with anyone? None of us owes a hater our time or words. My ability to ignore is strong, it often upsets those who want me to give my attention to their nonsense!

As far as my political views on identity, I see politics as a tool of control needed by those who need a master or a leader.

Another tool of separation I simply don’t bless with my time and energy is politics in general. I’ve seen what politics does to a country my whole life. I’ve taken a lot of abuse for saying things 10 or 15 years ago that people are upset about being true today. Some of these same people now want to be close to me and talk to me about the subjects. I, with love and respect, gently let them know that they have shown me who they are and they way their OK with they way they and others treated me just for saying something they don’t agree with. I don’t need that toxic energy around me. This is not my tribe. I am happy the truth is being realized by more and more people and carry no hate for them.

What I choose to say will be said. I will say what I mean and mean what I say. I do NOT bless any platform with my presence that does not support freedom. Facebook isn’t a part of my world, neither is Twitter, Instagram or any other social media that thinks their going to stop me fro saying anything. “Fact Checkers” are nothing but an insult to anyone with a brain cell. I do my own thinking and research, thank you. I speak with love and respect, I will NOT disrespect myself or others by being politically correct, that’s the language of sheep not of the free.I do not speak that language. Any platform that tries to tell me what is misinformation and supports the evil in this world is beneath me. Hell, their beneath the dog shit I stepped in the other day. Powerless, weak and not able to get my cooperation. I’m noticing lots of people are not giving them their cooperation. Fucking beautiful!

I can not find enough evil and ignorance inside me to hate labels. I just see them as useless tools of separation and control that cause a lot of pain. I’m not a democrat or republican, I’m certainly not a liberal or feminist. I don’t allow political labels to have control over my being…sticks and stones my friends. If someone identifies as gender number 82, begs the government for inclusion and hates those with different political views, I’ll support your right to be that way. It sounds like a miserable existence to me but others may enjoy walking that path. That’s not someone in my tribe which is OK. That doesn’t mean I hate them for being different, not at all. I may even understand their views but not agree with them.


What matters is that my words and actions match. I live my life according to my beliefs, what is true and right for me, in honor of myself and my ancestors. Freedom is important to me so I live it every day and let other live theirs. My physical health is important to me so I eat from Mother Gaia’s table and eat very little processed food and nothing from any company Bill Gates has an interest in. My mental health in important to me so I make sure I’m feeding myself high quality mental food, not the shit brain food such as any form of main stream media. Loving my community matters…both local and worldly. That means allowing others live their way as I live mine. I’m here to provide food and medicine for my community, not judge them or shrink them into political labels. I’d rather lift them up and support them for who they are.

Politics has no power over me or my life. Their an old belief system crumbling away to make way to the new, the better. They are doing all they can to hold on to the illusion of power that so many are seeing through now. They know we are the power. They can’t mess with everyone’s identity, too many of us know who we are. More and more people who fell for the identity mental abuse are waking up and discovering who they are and coming into their won power. This is a beautiful time to be alive on the planet as we’re watching the split between 3D an 5D on the same planet. As much as humanity has been abused by the powerless ones, they are coming into their power and identifying as the powerful beings they are. Once you know your true identity, politics becomes nothing but an unpopular puppet show.

In a free world, the one in which I live, each and every being is free to grow into their authentic selves without the powerless little fly of politics buzzing around. Sexuality is a personal thing, not something we make as our identity while shrinking the rest of us. Political views are just that…their not an identity. Everyone is entitled to their opinion without having to argue about it or be attacked. No one answers to politics or their followers. NO ONE.


When I see people, I’m not looking at political labels or judging. A gentleman with a “Trump” hat tells me nothing about him. He likes Trump, OK. That’s part of who he is and he has the freedom to be. Not my business, not my journey. He’s free to be and do what he chooses and deserves no abuse over it. What I see is another soul on a journey. The young man with green hair and make up done better than I do it. How does he do it so well? He’s just another soul on a mission with a makeup talent I wish I had. Not my thing, not my business, not for me. Just another soul on a journey. The pagan that opens up to me about her practice and we become friends, another soul I happen to have something in common with. The lady that visits my market stand and wants to tell me all about her gardening adventures…another soul on a journey. Their not all like us, that’s what is needed for balance in this universe. Our job is to live and let live.

Please, focus on your greatness, not on living up to some stupid label. Those days are gone and the world has changed. We need real, authentic people, power is in our authenticity and diversity. It will never come to light in the box of a man made label. We are what they fear, let them have their useless labels.

You are NOT a label!

Enjoy your journey, let others walk theirs in peace and freedom their own way and don’t shrink yourself into mindless political labels, you’re so much more than that, we all are!!

What are ways you don’t shrink yourself of others into political labels? How is your journey unique? There are no judgements here as we are all souls on a journey!

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