The Greatest Gift My Mother Has Ever Blessed Me With

There is one gift that my mother has given me that has served me my entire this life and still does so today. It’s a gift I passed on to my own children. I’m not even sure my mother knows what a positively profound gift she was giving me, although I know the freedom to think for myself and make my own choices was at the heart of it. While other girls were being taught to be good, well behaved little ladies, I had a handful of brothers and a strong ass mother with true southern values. She did not correct my perceived attitude problem or out-of-the-box quirkiness, she just made sure I was respectful.

The gift I’m talking about here is the freedom to explore other belief systems and have the space to talk about them. She allowed me to go to churches and other places with friends and neighbors of different belief systems. She allowed me to express the different aspects of me and taught me how equally important they all are and that they all equally deserve respect. Not one is better or worse than the other. She would answer my questions the best she could but never attempted to create fear, prejudice or any negative feelings towards others for being different. So much of this is missing today in the 3D. What my mother was doing was supporting true freedom. If she were to tell me there is only one way to be or believe she would have strongly instilled a belief of conformity in me. I’m grateful for her unique wisdom as I see conformity as the death of authenticity which is the death of diversity and strength.

Another thing she did was to make sure we knew every human on this plant is just that…a human, just as important as we are. We are all here for different reasons. Expecting others to squeeze into some box takes away the beautiful strength and experiences diversity brings. I was different as a kid, much like I am as an adult. I didn’t know it then, I know my mother knew somewhere deep inside, my differences are my strength. There is strength in diversity, weakness is in any group or society who require conformity and sameness. There’s reasons political puppets work hard to get everyone thinking and being the same. They can’t have the illusion of power over a diverse society that thinks for themselves and refuses to separate over differences.

The most beneficial effect this has had on me is to nurture my innate curiosity and allow me to find my way. I would never be who and what I am today without the freedom to do so as a child. I never felt the guilt or fear most religions require and never felt guilty for exploring the occult, which means hidden. I would have never discovered my powers and abilities or had the ability to use magick for the good of myself and others and to help heal the medically incurable. My mind would have been clouded, like it has been in other areas, by the chatter of the useless indoctrination that likes to keep us humans in a box.

My mother taught me to be me, to be strong and to not fear what I don’t know. She allowed me to experience different cultures and belief systems and taught me the value of all human life, we ALL matter. My mother taught me to be myself, no matter what is going on in the puppet world of politics, what society is saying or what anyone says. I was taught to have no regard for these mindless things and just do me. The only voice that matters is mine as I’m trustworthy enough to make my own decisions and be and believe as I am.

My mother is not a Witch and my family religion is Southern Baptist. She didn’t have to be and her chosen religion is unimportant to allow me to grow into the Eclectic Nature Witch I am today. She never taught me to be like her but to explore and experience. I was not taught to fear what I don’t know or any of the Gods. I was never given a guilt trip for being different and doing my own thing. Those are rare gifts I will always treasure.

This is the greatest gift my mother has ever given me and for that, I will always honor her.

Thank you, Mom.

Getting to Know Myself, NOT Identifying and Begging For Inclusion

I find the whole concept of adopting a man made label, allowing it to shrink my identity to the core of who I am to fit it just empty, mindless and disgusting. There is no growth, no newness, no uniqueness. Labels destroy the things that make the human race strong…diversity, adaptation and growth. The whole concept of seeing myself as a victim then begging for inclusion and protection from the people who invented and feed off this nonsense is ridiculous. Humans are not that small. We are all more than any political or man made group can comprehend. Man made and political labels keep us small, no one is on this planet to play small, shrink into labels or be a powerless victim.This is how they divide and control us. Man made labels suck that good ass prana right out of you. I choose better. So many people are these days and I love it!

I’m a spiritual being having a human experience on this planet as part of the awakening. I’m sovereign and live by my natural rights, not the man made liberties the powerless ones need us to accept. I’ll keep my natural rights, thank you. This means I don’t need the powerlessness of the government to include my special label. Of course it will keep me small to let one part of my identity overshadow the other parts, it puts us out of balance. That’s the purpose of tools of separation. I choose to NOT allow my identity to be a tool. The government is too small to comprehend the vastness of us humans. We are the power, we govern ourselves. They have nothing worth adopting and begging for, not a thing.

I identify as me. I’m a spiritual being having a human experience. I’m growing into my power and abilities and discovering new things about myself all the time. There is no word for who I authentically am and the same is true for you. If I were stuck on one label, my growth will stop and I’ll focus on the victimhood of the label. I’ve been victimized, there isn’t a force on this planet that will make me identify as a victim that needs inclusion and protection. I’ve allowed those experiences make stronger and wiser than the ones who victimized me. I turned them into the shit that fertilized my growth. My vibe attracts my tribe, no government forced inclusion necessary. I belong in places right for me which may not be places right for others. My belief in freedom does not allow me to hate others different than I, that would be conformity and hateful. The powerless ones love that, it’s delicious food for them. You have to have hate in you to hate others just for being different. There’s enough of that on this planet. It’s destructive and mindless. When I look around in the world I choose to live in, I see very few people lowering themselves to that nonsense. It’s a beautiful thing!

My identity changes and grows as I learn, grow and go deep within me to get to know myself on a deeper level. I don’t hold on to any part of me, that will only strangle and kill it. There isn’t a force in this universe that can tell me who I am. I’m discovering myself every day. Once I put a label on myself I stop my growth and externalize my power to man made governments and ideals. Man made anything can’t handle the concept of a human who knows their power and the forces in the Universe. That’s why religions and politics use the ever so obvious tools of control such as fear, trying to make us feel small and powerless and using our differences to separate us. There’s strength in diversity and they know that. Diversity among all us humans and diversity within ourselves.

My sexuality is NOT a political issue and politics is powerless to make it one. It’s also not my identity, it’s simply a part of who I am. It does not make me less or more than the next person and I love no rights over it. You don’t lose natural rights. Liberties come from man and we all the choice to exchange our natural rights for man made liberties. I choose not to. I don’t need anyone’s approval nor do I need to mention any other gender or sexual orientation or any other man made label in my conversations. My conversations are what I choose them to be, period. I also do no need to be “represented” or “included” in anyone else’s conversations, public or private. I don’t identify as a woman, I AM a bad ass woman. My creator does NOT make mistakes. I am NOT a birthing person. Giving birth, giving life, being the portal in which life enters this planet, is just one of my many talents. My body is able to birth another perfect human human…boy or girl as none of us are made as mistakes. As the embodiment of the Divine Feminine, I not only give birth, I bring life in other ways. I nurture my garden which feeds my family and community. The life I nurture plants into brings life to living beings which brings life to this planet. I make powerful medicines to help others get back to the diving beings they are. I have the magick of Gaia and the Universe pulsing though my veins and learned how to use my abilities. This is exactly what all the labels are to keep us from discovering…our own power.

Who I have sex with has nothing to do with my identity and is personal. Am I straight? Gay? Bi? What sexual orientation do I identify with? NONE! I’m what my creator made me to be and I don’t have to answer to a being in this Universe for that. It doesn’t matter to anyone but me and the person or people I choose to be sexual with. Period. I don’t owe anyone an answer to any questions that I deem personal. I don’t need to protection or inclusion, I need to live true to who I am by my own beliefs and ignore those who don’t like it. I don’t do haters, I simply have no time or energy for them. I put them on ignore quick and never think of them again. Really, with all the changes going on in this world, who has time to argue with anyone? None of us owes a hater our time or words. My ability to ignore is strong, it often upsets those who want me to give my attention to their nonsense!

As far as my political views on identity, I see politics as a tool of control needed by those who need a master or a leader.

Another tool of separation I simply don’t bless with my time and energy is politics in general. I’ve seen what politics does to a country my whole life. I’ve taken a lot of abuse for saying things 10 or 15 years ago that people are upset about being true today. Some of these same people now want to be close to me and talk to me about the subjects. I, with love and respect, gently let them know that they have shown me who they are and they way their OK with they way they and others treated me just for saying something they don’t agree with. I don’t need that toxic energy around me. This is not my tribe. I am happy the truth is being realized by more and more people and carry no hate for them.

What I choose to say will be said. I will say what I mean and mean what I say. I do NOT bless any platform with my presence that does not support freedom. Facebook isn’t a part of my world, neither is Twitter, Instagram or any other social media that thinks their going to stop me fro saying anything. “Fact Checkers” are nothing but an insult to anyone with a brain cell. I do my own thinking and research, thank you. I speak with love and respect, I will NOT disrespect myself or others by being politically correct, that’s the language of sheep not of the free.I do not speak that language. Any platform that tries to tell me what is misinformation and supports the evil in this world is beneath me. Hell, their beneath the dog shit I stepped in the other day. Powerless, weak and not able to get my cooperation. I’m noticing lots of people are not giving them their cooperation. Fucking beautiful!

I can not find enough evil and ignorance inside me to hate labels. I just see them as useless tools of separation and control that cause a lot of pain. I’m not a democrat or republican, I’m certainly not a liberal or feminist. I don’t allow political labels to have control over my being…sticks and stones my friends. If someone identifies as gender number 82, begs the government for inclusion and hates those with different political views, I’ll support your right to be that way. It sounds like a miserable existence to me but others may enjoy walking that path. That’s not someone in my tribe which is OK. That doesn’t mean I hate them for being different, not at all. I may even understand their views but not agree with them.

What matters is that my words and actions match. I live my life according to my beliefs, what is true and right for me, in honor of myself and my ancestors. Freedom is important to me so I live it every day and let other live theirs. My physical health is important to me so I eat from Mother Gaia’s table and eat very little processed food and nothing from any company Bill Gates has an interest in. My mental health in important to me so I make sure I’m feeding myself high quality mental food, not the shit brain food such as any form of main stream media. Loving my community matters…both local and worldly. That means allowing others live their way as I live mine. I’m here to provide food and medicine for my community, not judge them or shrink them into political labels. I’d rather lift them up and support them for who they are.

Politics has no power over me or my life. Their an old belief system crumbling away to make way to the new, the better. They are doing all they can to hold on to the illusion of power that so many are seeing through now. They know we are the power. They can’t mess with everyone’s identity, too many of us know who we are. More and more people who fell for the identity mental abuse are waking up and discovering who they are and coming into their won power. This is a beautiful time to be alive on the planet as we’re watching the split between 3D an 5D on the same planet. As much as humanity has been abused by the powerless ones, they are coming into their power and identifying as the powerful beings they are. Once you know your true identity, politics becomes nothing but an unpopular puppet show.

In a free world, the one in which I live, each and every being is free to grow into their authentic selves without the powerless little fly of politics buzzing around. Sexuality is a personal thing, not something we make as our identity while shrinking the rest of us. Political views are just that…their not an identity. Everyone is entitled to their opinion without having to argue about it or be attacked. No one answers to politics or their followers. NO ONE.

When I see people, I’m not looking at political labels or judging. A gentleman with a “Trump” hat tells me nothing about him. He likes Trump, OK. That’s part of who he is and he has the freedom to be. Not my business, not my journey. He’s free to be and do what he chooses and deserves no abuse over it. What I see is another soul on a journey. The young man with green hair and make up done better than I do it. How does he do it so well? He’s just another soul on a mission with a makeup talent I wish I had. Not my thing, not my business, not for me. Just another soul on a journey. The pagan that opens up to me about her practice and we become friends, another soul I happen to have something in common with. The lady that visits my market stand and wants to tell me all about her gardening adventures…another soul on a journey. Their not all like us, that’s what is needed for balance in this universe. Our job is to live and let live.

Please, focus on your greatness, not on living up to some stupid label. Those days are gone and the world has changed. We need real, authentic people, power is in our authenticity and diversity. It will never come to light in the box of a man made label. We are what they fear, let them have their useless labels.

You are NOT a label!

Enjoy your journey, let others walk theirs in peace and freedom their own way and don’t shrink yourself into mindless political labels, you’re so much more than that, we all are!!

What are ways you don’t shrink yourself of others into political labels? How is your journey unique? There are no judgements here as we are all souls on a journey!

Things to Consider When Moving Into a New Community

While chatting with locals at the Ten Mile Market, I overheard a conversation that echoed what I’ve been hearing, all the new people moving in is changing this charming little town. It opened my mind to something I haven’t thought of…our impact on the community we’re moving into.

Each community has it’s own vibe, culture and the local’s reasons for living there. With the Off Grid Movement as well as people staying on grid but moving to little country towns, there are changes by default. This gets me thinking…how can we make the impact on Ten Mile and our surrounding communities a positive, symbiotic one? What are the communities needs and desires and how can we fill them? What should we avoid doing, besides the obvious things, that wouldn’t serve our community? How can we serve?

In my opinion the first thing we need to do is get to know our communities. Statistics may help but they really don’t get down to the essence of the people, what they really need or what they really don’t want. Get out and talk to the locals, really listen to them. The ones who aren’t supportive of so many new people coming in have legitimate concerns. Listen to them and be sensitive to what their saying.

One concern here is people who own large pieces of land selling them off in tracts of land, causing all sorts of new people moving. We’re one of those people. The locals here love the small country town feeling, the lack of big, ugly buildings and corporate signs everywhere. Who can blame them? It’s beautiful here! As a newbie I can preserve what the Goddess has blessed us with, respect her and all her creations. We keep our land clean and organized. In the future, we will have camp sites, educational programs and herb walks on our land. We want the community to have clean, Gaia-friendly experience. We never know who we may influence.

Little things make a big difference. Recycling when we can and properly disposing of trash is just the right way to handle waste. Being off grid, we’re very sensitive to our natural resource use. Water, fossil fuel, solar, etc. are finite. We’re not stressing the community’s resources and that feels good. When we do purchase what we need, we purchase it as local as possible from local businesses when possible. We contribute to the local economy and support small local businesses. There are so many every day ways to support our local communities. No one has to do anything big, little things make a huge difference.

We moved here with the intention of feeding and providing plant medicine to our local community. We followed our guidance and this is where it led us. After doing some research and talking to a few people that work in local agriculture, I learned there is a demand for fresh, affordable produce. There are no real grocery stores here, just a small local country store. We can provide plants, seeds, food and medicine as well as handmade farm and cleaning products and we can do it at friendly prices. A lot of people are struggling here, we can help. I’ve already sold cucumber and tomato starts at affordable prices and have other plants growing to offer. When fruit, veggies and herbs are ready for harvest, I’ll be offering them as well as making food and medicine out of them.

Being a good neighbor is a great way to serve the community. I value my relationship with my neighbors. Our back property line ends in a field owned by the county, we do have neighbors on each side of us. We all have different lifestyles. The first neighbors to move in are a beautiful family of 4 off griddin’ in a camper. We have became great friends. They have been there for us quite a few times and I even had the blessing of babysitting their beautiful children. They have the same mindset as us. The people on the other side are really nice people that are not off grid. I had the blessing of spending time with them just chatting. My dogs love them and they brought me some info on a local business I plan to visit. Very thoughtful! Both neighbors are different which is what we need…diversity is strength.

We can all practice the Golden Rule. I’ve really enjoyed talking to the beautiful people in my community, I’ve learned so much about them and myself that just can not be found on the internet. When I put myself in their shoes I can understand their side too. As their watching their quaint little country town transform, those of us who are moving in have a responsibility to be sure what they see their towns turn into is a peaceful, loving, respecting community. We need to do our best to add to these communities. Community is what is going to save this planet.

Are you someone watching a large number of people move into your quiet little town? What are your experiences and suggestions for the newbies? Are you, like us, one of the many moving into a quiet little town? What are your experiences? How do you support your community? I’d love more ideas!!!

Peppermint Rescued Me From Mice, Ants and Mystery Critters

Anyone off grid has pest stories to tell, we move right in with them when we move into nature. Our pest story is all about mice and ants. Ants have been pretty easy to deal with, I removed them from our on grid house in the past. The ants here seem just as easy to deal with. We get what I believe are field mice, or some kind of little mouse. I’m in no way an expert on mice. From what I can tell from my research, the poops and food they have eaten from are telling me mice. I also saw one…cute but eeewww!

First the ants. Their quick to find the stickiest little thing here. Being proactive can keep them from invading our space in the first place. I’m careful to wipe down the kitchen, give it a good evening cleaning and wipe down things like honey food containers. I use fist clean with an antimicrobial cleaner I make then I disinfect with my home made disinfectant. I let it sit for 10 minutes. All disinfectants, made with man’s or Gaia’s ingredients doesn’t matter, needs to site on a surface for 10 minutes to work. We leave no food or crumbs out at all. Ants need a reason to invade. For the most part we do pretty good keeping ants away however, every now and then we get forgetful or don’t notice something that may attract them.

There are many essential oils that deter ants, I choose cheap peppermint oil. You can certainly use more expensive essential oils, the ants dislike them equally. I save my organic, more expensive essential oils for our apothecary products and our personal products. Peppermint isn’t the only options, ants don’t like cinnamon, eucalyptus and many other aromas, many in the Mint Family. Finding one you like is important, the oil will leave a fragrance in you home so make sure it’s one you like.

I did a little experiment…a few times as I have shown others as well. If you put a drop of peppermint oil in an ant’s path, it will turn around and go in the opposite direction. If you put it in the path of many ants, they all will retreat. It’s a great way to deter them without harmful chemicals. I put the oil where they come in as well as where they might go…the counter, around the propane cooker, etc. You can also sprinkle dried peppermint leaves, tea form is great for this. It’s a bit messier but will do the trick. You can also make your own peppermint oil by infusing peppermint into oil. Either dry or fresh peppermint works. You can also warm it up slightly and let it steep. This is not essential oil.

The second pest is the mice in the outdoor kitchen. These guys aren’t as easily deterred as the ants, they take a bit more work. They, much like the ants and other critters, do not like peppermint. Our kitchen is currently a temporary outside kitchen covered in tarps on plastic pallets. It’s not exactly critter proof. We do keep everything in sealed totes to keep both critters and moisture out. Until we get the permanent kitchen built, I’m going to need to put a few minutes of time every evening into pest control.

In the evening, I clean the kitchen really well and make sure all food is put away. I put anything I don’t want critters crawling on into sealed plastic totes. I focus on not leaving anything out that could give mice a reason to visit us. I then sprinkle peppermint tea leaves all over the counters and floor in areas they get in. I use peppermint oil in areas they enter and around anything I don’t want them near such as the entrance to the hot tent.

So far this is working. They key is remembering to put the peppermint out. I’ve forgot a few times but it wasn’t so bad because the kitchen was clean. I did see a few mouse poops, like they were just passing through. I still disinfected everything. I know it’s excessive, I don’t deny that. One of our motivating factors to moving out here is to get healthier. I would rather be a little excessive than to get sick or eat whatever critters leave behind.

So far these methods of deterring ants and mice are working well. From this experience we know to be mindful about how well build our permanent kitchen. These experiences are great learning experiences. Another use for peppermint is in the garden. I’m sure mice are out there, I don’t know what the mystery critters are. I go out to the garden every morning and there’s nibbled on plants and others missing completely. The critters love the garden, I can’t blame them. I love the garden. There’s nothing more delicious and healthy than heirlooms grown in our own back yards. The critters are very impatient, they won’t let a plant grow beyond seedling size. I experimented by putting peppermint tea on all the plants that the critters like to eat. So far it’s working!


Let’s be realistic here…we are growing crops in the middle of the woods where just last year at this time was uninhabited by humans. We moved onto their land. The presence of bugs and critters is to be expected. We’re here to live symbiotically with Mother Nature, not to harm her or her creatures. As long as we can deter a pest we will go that route. I would rather keep a critter or bug away than to kill them, we don’t need that energy here. We do understand that this may not always be the best option. When we are able to use it, we will.

I’d love to hear about your critter story! How do you deter or get rid of them? What are your experiences?

With Love,

Rainie Dae

First Day At The Ten Mile Market

It’s been over a year since we appeared live anywhere. Now that we’re settled in on the homestead, we decided to be part of the Ten Mile Market. Our first day was last Saturday, April 2. It was very nice to get back to making products and planning our table display. I love having conversations about herbalism, farming and food. It didn’t take long for me to realize what a great community we have moved into.

The first one we met was Zack, the guy who put the whole thing together. He was great before the Market at explaining how things go and very welcoming. I quickly discovered Zack has a booth himself with his adorable girlfriend. He makes T-Shirts, Mugs, Stickers, etc. He does a great job! He can be found at After meeting Zack, I met Barb and her husband Wayne who have Wayne’s Wood Works. Way so graciously helped us set up our tent. I’m blessed to have one of his handmade bird houses! He makes many other items. The wonderful being to the other side of me was Charlotte from Rustic Farm Crafters who has the most delicious farm fresh eggs and an amazing talent for art. I came home with farm fresh eggs and a beautiful piece of art. Both these vendors are on Facebook. There were plenty of other vendors, a very nice variety of merchandise and all very nice people. I did a bit of shopping myself!

Birdhouse from Wayne’s Wood Works

The Ten Mile Market is a great place to meet the beautiful people in this community. There were so many friendly, loving souls, the energy was high and happy. They also weren’t shy about what their looking for. One beautiful soul requested microgreens. Another asked about Elderberry Syrup and another more variety of seeds. I’m taking note of all the feedback! Seeds were our best seller and the topic of conversation quite often so I put together some gift sets of 5 seed packs in a cute little organza bag. The more feedback, the more we can better serve our community. Microgreens and Elderberry Syrup are coming in a few weeks. We’re always adding more varieties of seeds.

Painting by Charlotte at Rustic Farm

This coming weekend, April 9, 2022, we’re adding organically grown heirloom cucumber and tomato plant starts, incense and well, we will save the rest for the Market. Even though we are not certified organic, we use only organic practices on our farm. No dangerous toxins at all. If we were to get certified we would have to raise our prices to cover the cost as it’s an expensive process for a little farm. We’re very open about our practices and have absolutely no problem answering any questions and hearing about your experiences and suggestions. The more feedback we get the better we can serve our fellow humans.

Some of our products on our first day

If you’re in the area, stop by this Saturday morning in Ten Mile, TN on HWY 304, you can’t miss it!!! I’m not personally on Facebook, the hubs is, he posts on the Ten Mile Market Facebook Page. I post on Parler @RaineDae, LinkedIn and Pinterest at Love of Lotus Apothecary.


Rainie Dae

Off Grid Lessons

Life is full of lessons, it’s why many of us are on this planet…there’s things we need to learn. Being off grid comes with it’s own set of lessons. There’s so many we’ve learned in the past few months, so many!!! I’ve decided to start a new blog series about our adventure to off grid sustainability and supporting our community. It’s been quite the beautifully challenging journey.

I’ve had access to free or affordable information which was paramount to obtaining the knowledge needed prior to starting this journey. I’m grateful for every video, book, article, blog post, forum, course, every human who so generously shared their time with me. Looking back, I’ve been blessed to access with a ton of information and the same still holds true today. Now It’s my time to teach and pay it forward, keep the information and good will flowing. Each one can teach one.

These past few months I’m finding myself in mentor or teacher roles, I’m getting random questions from random people and I’m actually able to answer them!!! This is something I’m used to as an herbalist and forager, I’ve been a medicine woman for a while now. The same with drumming, it’s part of who I am. I have not considered myself any type of mentor or source of knowledge about off grid living, homesteading, gardening and certainly not farming. In fact, I find myself seeking answers for my own plethora of questions on all these topics and many more. I really don’t consider myself an expert in herbalism, foraging or drumming. I see myself as an eternal student. Once I consider myself some kind of expert, I will stop learning and my mind will start to close. I can’t have that!

I believe there are signs all around us. We just forgot how to read them. My intuition has never been wrong and I’m getting messages that are guiding me in a certain direction. I’m given opportunities to answer questions and help others in various ways that give me an opportunity to really give back and share what I’ve received. This blog is another opportunity. I’m beginning to share what I’ve been blessed with, which is amazing. Sometimes I’m surprised at my ability to answers questions or know the information to share. Most of the time I walk away with questions of my own. Every time I learn something.

This blog will be about mine and my Hub’s experience, the good the lessons, the struggles and the victories. We ain’t always pretty and we don’t care who sees it. I will be completely honest. I write my blog for humans as we all have our moments aka learning experiences. I’m not afraid to admit when I’m wrong, own up to my mistakes, know where I need to improve and laugh at it all at the end of the day. Learning the lesson is what is important and sharing with each other with loving kindness raises everyone’s vibration. None of us are stupid, many are ignorant. I’m on this plant to heal her, heal others and heal myself. I’m on this path because it’s leading me to where I need to make myself available while keep my own mind open.

I’m really looking forward to sharing our experiences here on our farm and homestead. Feed back, suggestions, laughs, support, love and community are always welcome. We really don’t care about all the tools of separation, we don’t live in that world. We care who you are, lifting you up, sharing what we know and hearing about what you know. Community, love and unity is what is going to save this planet and to create and keep those things going we need knowledge that is becoming rare. There is a growing interest in those topics, it’s not coincidence that so many are sharing what they know in various ways. It’s also no coincidence I’ve been guided to learn and experiment so much the past few years.

Each one can teach one. I’m a student and a teacher, so are you 🙂



The Gift of Healing Myself

It’s amazing to think about what we as humans are able to do. In the current times, I’m noticing more and more humans awaken to who they are and their own powers. Those of us who knew are beginning to speak out more and being called crazy a lot less. We’re beginning to be called upon by those who are waking up. Healing, true healing with the Goddess’s medicine, is becoming more and more common as our current systems that have proven to be failures fall apart. It’s a beautiful thing and a power we all have been gifted.

I got a reminder of what we’re able to do when I kicked a rock and really messed my foot up. The Hubs so thoughtfully suggested I stopped kicking rocks. He’s awfully lucky he didn’t endure the next rock injury! I wasn’t kicking rocks directly, I was kicking the ball for Sabian, our beautiful lab mix. She’s playful, very playful, I mean pain in my ass playful at times. She’s right there with every farm project, throwing her toy at me. I love her, she’s my protector and such a sweet girl…unless she doesn’t know you. That’s an entirely different issue. I was walking along our path form our home to the garden and kicking the ball as Sabian brought it back to me. I did not notice she set it by a rock…we have very rocky soil here. There are rocks everywhere. This rock was mostly buried in the soil, sticking out just enough for an injury to occur. I kicked the rock while attempting to kick the ball. I hit the foot right underneath the toes, it felt as if I jammed all the bones back into my ankle. It hurt, but wasn’t too painful so I let out some not so lady-like words and went on with my day. I spent the next few hours running around doing farm chores. I honestly didn’t think it was all that bad, it wasn’t feeling bad…yet.

After I finally settled down and took my shoes off, I was a bit taken back by what I felt and saw. I’m assuming the tied shoe was enough of a wrap to keep the foot from really bothering me. After I took it off, it hurt and I mean bad. It was swollen to almost twice the size of the other foot, it just looked awful. How the hell did all that fit in my shoe? I was pretty sure I couldn’t get the foot back in my shoe if I wanted to. I realized I did more damage than I thought and went into self care emergency mode right away.

At this point it just hurts to stand or put any weight and pressure on it. I tried. I ended crawling on my hands and knees while keeping my foot in the air. I then crawled over to the dresser and grabbed blood support capsules, the same ones I sell in Love of Lotus Apothecary. Blood capsules aren’t my first go to for something like this however, I have everything else packed away right now and no patience to go looking for it. I’m in pain and my food looks like a pillow. I take the blood capsules myself so my personal stash available. Many of the herbs in the blend for the blood capsules are anti-inflammatory and anodynes. I took a few capsules and elevated my foot for the next few painful hours.

The capsules did help with the pain and inflammation, while at rest. They didn’t do much for comfortable use of my foot. I’m building a new a new farm from the ground up and I have drums to play. I have no time for this nonsense. Before I went to sleep I did energy healing on myself. I am a healer however, I’ve only done energy healing on myself and I haven’t been trained. I haven’t used it often so I wouldn’t consider myself all that experienced with it. I do get nice results when I do use it.

I grounded into the earth and drew down the energy of the moon. I surrounded myself with both energies and combined the healing energies of Mother Gaia and Mother Moon. I gathered the energy into a ball and held it for while focusing my intention into it. I gave thanks for the healing and focused on my foot being well again. I then, with strong intention and concentration, put that energy into my foot. I felt it penetrate my aura and then my foot. The sensations I felt as the energy entered and began to heal my food are hard to explain and felt as if the healing was coming from outside of myself, as if from another entity.

After doing this, I gave thanks, said my final words and released the energy into the universe. I came our of trance and my foot felt the same. I went to sleep with the foot elevated with an inner knowing that the healing was already done. I focused on the desired result as I drifted off to sleep. I slept well, the pain surprisingly didn’t bother me at all. When I woke the next morning, I had a barley noticeable bruise and no pain, not even a little. I’m walking just fine. The Hubs and I went for nice walk in a nature trail and I went right back my normal running around just like nothing ever happen.

We humans are so powerful, most of us are indoctrinated and programmed away from our abilities, some so much that they laugh at the possibility of having them. What we’re gifted with is what those with the illusion of power fear. It’s really amazing when a human comes into their power, we are truly unlimited. I’m only learning of my power and abilities. I know there’s so much more I can do, I just haven’t discovered it yet. Healing my foot is a good start.

It’s been a few days and my foot is still as good as new. It’s a good thing as I’m preparing to finally get my butt back on stage. I can’t play rock star with a bum high hat/slave petal foot. I’ve been all over this land working on the farm. All I can say is Thank you, embrace my gifts and help others where I can. I’m deeply grateful for the Goddess’s medicine.

Have you discovered abilities you have? Do you use your abilities for every day, mundane life? Share your experiences below, I’d love to hear about them!

Happy Awakening!

Its All Just Dirt!

There are those who get us and those who don’t and there’s not a darn thing wrong with that. Those who believe in freedom will leave the ones they don’t get alone to freely live out their weird ass lives. Those who believe in conformity will try to tell those who are different than them to conform. This will never end nor should it. It’s there not to argue with but to be the shit that fertilizes our growth, we’re responsible for our own soil. The only thing we need to know how to do is bring the proper nutrients out of that dirt. Either we make it into soil that serves us and let it go, or we wallow in the shit and that’s just gross.

We all know people who have wallowed in their own shit while complaining about the results of doing so. If we’re honest with ourselves, we can remember times when we did so. Sometimes we have to wallow in our own shit or the shit of others before we realize what we’re doing and that’s OK. Sometimes we smell it right away. Regardless if it’s us or another person, if we pay close attention we see what wallowing gets us and we do have a choice. Some will get comfortable in their wallowing, others will do something about it. It’s the moment we realize we’re in the shit that will determine if we grow or shrink. Humans are a very interesting species indeed.

If we choose, we can draw the nutrients, or the lessons, from whatever soil we find ourselves in. Regardless of the situation or how we got there, we are never relieved of personal responsibility. We can choose not to practice it which leaves our lives in a variety of undesirable situations or we can stop blame. Once the situation has manifested, we need to do what we need to do for ourselves. If we spend our time blaming and being angry at the guilty party, we are not focusing on fixing the problem or ourselves. We are choosing to wallow. This keeps us powerless and sick spiritually, mentally and physically. The puppet show we call politics is full of fear, blame and name calling…I see a lot of encouraged wallowing by wallowers in puppet strings. There’s no nutrients there, just a poorly maintained sewage system full of toxic bacteria and bad energy.

It’s all dirt and we all get dirty, we all have our own internal battles and seeds that need to grow. What matters is how fertile your dirt is. Are you going to roll around in it, get angry because it’s there or use the fertilizer thrown your way,stick your roots down deep and let it grow you? We all have a choice.

This morning the Hubs left for work and the van broke down. He only made it about a mile away and was able to get the van back home. The hubs doesn’t miss work, he’s never late for anything. Needless to say, he was wallowing a bit and I caught myself beginning to wallow with him. If I chose to wallow with him, it wouldn’t serve either one of us or the situation. Chances are we would have ended up arguing and making things worse. I took a step back and let him have his moment. I put myself in his energy and felt what he was feeling. If I were feeling that way, I wouldn’t be ready talk about it or hear about it quite yet either.

I’m not saying this was all smooth sailing and it’s over. He’s human and although he didn’t put me down or say anything at me to hurt me, he did say some things that I had a response to but bit my tongue. I had to keep reminding myself that now is not the time, we will talk later. I couldn’t expect him to go straight into solutions at that moment, he needed time. The wound is still fresh. As a the divine masculine he has a strong will to provide and protect, when this is challenged it’s challenging for him and I need to give him his space. I compare to things that I have a strong will to do, things I’m put on this planet to do. If my ability to grow food and medicine was messed with, I’ll need some time to process the situation before talking about it also. We all have things, situations and loved ones that would really challenge us to the point of almost paralyzing us. It’s OK, have that moment, let others have it, just don’t stay there.

We do need to count our blessings in hard times. It’s so easy to be thankful in easy times. Our wonderful neighbors saw our van down by the road, it wouldn’t make it onto the farm. He thought enough of us to call and check on us. A bit later we walked to the van so the hubs can look at something. The same neighbor was on his way home and stopped to check us again. He also shared his belief in prayer and how it helped him. That was a nice reminder. The Hub’s ‘s assistant was able to pick him up in the work van so he didn’t have to miss work. We do have options to talk about as how we’re going to remedy this problem, it’s nice to have choices. All our errands for the week are done. This really isn’t all that bad, just a learning and growing opportunity. When Rick is home and settled down we will look at our possible avenues of obtaining another vehicle or fixing this one.

Being the Nature Witch I am, I see this as a new beginning. It’s a New Moon today, there is new life all around us on this little farm, Spring time is here. This is a time for new growth, new doors opening and to plant seeds. I plan to get out into the woods today, connect with mother Gaia and just meditate. Opening myself up to guidance while grounding myself to the earth helps so much in many situations. It also settles down my monkey mind so I’m able to return to the situation with a clearer mind and and focus.

It’s amazing when you learn to influence the energies around you as well as within you. I’d love to hear how you handle stressful situations. We are all different and diversity is strength so don’t be afraid to share or try what someone else has shared.


Who You Are Can’t Be Shrunk Into Mindless Political Labels of Manipulation

Humans are such amazing creatures, we are all so much more than we realize. The Scamdemic has created a shit storm of division between us that has benefited the few while harming the many. One of their historically tools of division is identity which makes me wonder, when did we stop valuing individuals as the individuals they are? Why is it so common to shrink the being of who we are into political labels, work to fit those labels and oppose others who do not have the same labels? This is not freedom, this is manipulation and downright sick.

Every human on this planet is here on their own soul mission and not one mission, like one person, is the same. We are all so deeply unique on so many levels. I strongly believe we should encourage each other to be our unique selves, go deep inside and really get to know ourselves, challenge ourselves and become the best versions of ourselves we possibly can. We need to accept others for who they are, that’s freedom. Anything else is practicing a belief in conformity. This is why I don’t argue about politics and other nonsense. I’d rather stand up for someone’s right to disagree with me than to win a useless argument with them.

I will not attempt to shrink myself into man made political labels. No one should do that, we’re all more than that. We are a very tiny part of this amazing universe, what makes us think we can ever describe everything with labels? We see less than 1% of the electromagnetic spectrum. We hear less than 1% of the acoustic spectrum. What makes us think we each other or ourselves at all? Why aren’t we all wondering about what we don’t know instead of labeling the little we think we know? There’s very good reasons the government does not promote these things, it’s not good for their illusion of power. Attacking our identity is an easy way to keep us from our divine higher selves through separation and control.

Personally I’ve never claimed a political affiliation, I find them mindless and I don’t like what they do to people. To truly be a republican or democrat or liberal or whatever wing of the same bird, I would have to completely change my views because none of them resonate with me. They fail in considering my views and cause even more separation and division among us. It’s really a spectator sport I’m tired of.

Instead of shrinking myself into man made labels, begging for inclusion and arguing for agreement, I create the reality I want to see in the world. I do this with respect for those who choose differently than me, anything less is not freedom but a fight for conformity. I’m Rainie, what that means to you depends on how deeply you know me. It’s really what definition or lack of you give it. I’m a growing and changing creature, I’m not who I was last year or even last week. Us humans don’t know the true extent of who we are and our powers so how can any of us shrink into man made labels or hate on others who do? We’re responsible for our own growth and states of being, not for what we might see a lack of in others. Focusing on others has not served us well, focusing on ourselves while letting others be might be worth a try.

I do embrace and love what I do know about myself. Self love is lacking on the planet today. If we’re going to love anyone, we need to start with ourselves. I understand that society does not support this and it’s not part of the main stream programming. Those are things we’re all working to overcome, it’s nothing but indoctrination. What we’ve been taught is a lie, self love is necessary for true, vital, natural health. Embracing who we are is more important now than every. The attack on identity is one of the only tools they have.

Don’t let anyone tell you who you are or label you. Only you decide those things. For me, I’m a woman, not a birthing person. My gender is a gift from the creator and needed for this incarnation. It was not assumed at birth. I’m an embodiment of the divine feminine and I love and honor the divine masculine, regardless of man made labels. I respect all beings and the paths their on regardless if they agree with me or not. I believe the best thing I can do is be the best person I can be and help my community in any way I can. I have no medical status as I stopped seeing medical doctors years ago. That will NOT change. I’m too busy living what I belief to argue about it. I can go on. How does one put so much of who we are under one man made label? To do that we would have to deny other aspects of ourselves and become fragmented. That’s prime real estate for mental and physical dis ease.

Labels take the focus off our inner growth and connection and puts it on the mundane 3D world where we need to conform and fear the thoughts of others. Let them call you names, that behavior comes from small minds. The chatter of the world isn’t all that important. Pay attention, check in every once in a while, make your moves accordingly then live your life as YOU with you as the star actor. We we not made to fit into what the word has become nor is it healthy to try. The only thing we truly control is our states of being.

Not all labels are bad when used properly. I’m a drummer. Drumming is something I truly enjoy, both for spiritual reasons and because it’s fund to just rock out. That does not make me a rock star, it does not make me irresponsible or disloyal to my husband (Yeah, that one has been assumed a few times). I love being around musicians, there’s just so much to learn. That doesn’t mean music and drumming all I study. I’m a drummer. I’m a musician. I do things that fit those labels honestly. Those things do not describe me as a whole person nor do I change myself to fit those labels. They describe things I do.

Always be yourself and allow others to be them. Never judge a human by the label. Get to know them yourself and think for yourself. If someone energetically isn’t for you, be kind and wish them well. I know it’s hard to wish the creepy guy at the store or the chick that stole your mother’s mortgage money well. Do the best you can. Believe energy when you feel it and stay away from those who show you who they are. Use discernment but still be kind, even if that is kindly getting the heck away from them. There is enough negative energy in the world. There is no reason to make it worse. If we pay attention, so many negative entities are falling apart on this planet. The negative needs fear and your attention to live.

This is just my thoughts, I’d love you hear about yours below!

Supporting Our Men, The Divine Masculine

As the embodiment of the Divine Feminine and someone who embraces who I am, I must embrace and respect the Divine Masculine as well. Today in our society the Divine Masculine is being destroyed, much in the way they tried (and failed) to do to the divine feminine. With the Feminine Energy rising on this planet, the balance between masculine and feminine is being restored as part of the Great Awakening. As this energy rises, I’m feeling more and more like protecting and supporting the Divine Masculine as we need each other. It’s the way of the Universe. I do understand man has a different way, I don’t live man’s way so I’m not addressing it here as it’s not the world I live in. It’s a powerless waste of my time. We all have that choice.

We need real men and real women, the real energies that compliment each other. Neither is incapable of surviving on their own and both are necessary for life to continue. I don’t care if it’s in a petri dish, you need elements of both powerful energies for human life to continue. Nature answers our questions, she has masculine and feminine energies in everything in perfect balance. It’s humans who are out of balance, not what Mother Gaia created. The more we drift away from her the less and less natural we become, we forget our power and become consumed by the nonsense created by man. That’s not good for anyone.

I love and greatly appreciate our men, our real men. Our true men. The masculine energy expressed openly, lovingly and respectfully in support and love for the feminine energy. I love that the hubs opens doors for me, carries things for me, saves me the last bite of his cookie, builds the things we need, works hard to provide for us, protects me and our family, is there for me emotionally and spiritually, etc. He’s a man and these things are natural for him. He does what he does out of love, respect and protection for me. This does not make me weak as I can certainly do all these things myself. I’m perfectly capable of learning what I don’t know and I’m healthy and strong. There’s no reason why I can’t do them for myself. It’s not about that and I find the “I can do it myself” argument toxic as best. Men are not doing things for women because their weak or incapable. They do them because their men acting as men. It’s who they are. Why not work with it and let him be him and focus on being the best me I can be? Choosing to be offended or triggered is, in my opinion, is unappreciative and selfish. I’m blessed with my own needed talents and gifts, that is where my focus is. We’re a team, not competitors. If I didn’t let him be the man he is, how can I expect him to give me space to be the woman I am?

There is nothing the Hubs does that is offensive, nor is there is anything men like him do that is offensive to me. They don’t make me feel weak or like I can’t take care of myself. When a man chooses to take a few seconds of his time to open a door for me or carry something for me, I see it as the diving masculine respecting the diving feminine. I politely smile, say thank you and appreciate the gesture. With the abuse some of our men have taken for doing something so simply sweet, I feel showing appreciation through a smile and “thank you” is the least I can do. I don’t want men to stop being men, we need them. We not only need them more than ever today, we need them to be role models to teach our children what real men are. At the same time, women need to be role models for other women to teach respect, love and appreciation. Each one can teach one.

We all choose the world we want to live in. Right now the world is splitting…some are ascending to the 5D, others are staying in the Matrix. We all have a choice. Personally, I choose 5D, I choose Mother Nature, I choose to be the expression and embodiment of the divine feminine that defines me. Their is power in being authentic which is why the powerless ones use anything they can to keep us from knowing ourselves. I choose to support our real men, not out of weakness but out of respect, love and appreciation. Out of knowing men and women are put on this planet to compliment each other, not to be used as tools of separation and control. The ones who are going to survive what is going on in the world are the ones who can not only rely on themselves but rely on their community, their life partners. The ones who understand cooperation, support and what a community really is. We’re not put on this planet to be divided. I will not and there isn’t a force on this planet that can make me cooperate with the toxicity and man made nonsense.

To all our real men I thank you, I honor, I respect you and I support you.

Theirs nothing sexier than a man who embraces the Divine Masculine and lives a life that shows it.


Rainie Dae

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